heLLo.. goodbye.. ( for now.. )

there are some things that aren’t reaLLy meant for you.. just Like some peopLe who just pass you by.. or shouLd i say, pass your Life by.. it’s Like, today, they say heLLo to you,, then, the next day, you hang out together. sharing thoughts, and some mem’rabLe moments each of you had.. and tommorrow comes.. here he is.. saying goodbye to you.. feeLing gratitude for the Li’L times you’ve shared together.. you’re just surprised, of course.. ‘coz you’re expecting or just simpLy thinkin’ that on the coming days, you’LL be doin’ this with him, eating that with him, going there with him, riding here with him.. and that is the sad part.. you just end up thinking.. just thinking.. pLanning.. but reaLity bites, you have nothing to do, but to accept the truth.. his decision.. no matter what.. the point is; at Least, he somehow, touched your Life, or vice versa.. there’s no permanent in this pLanet nga e ‘diba.. you have to feeL great for him in anyways.. who knows, the reason must be a career move, a famiLy matter, an emotionaL or physicaL heaLing.. it’s just that you have to understand different circumstances.. why am i saying this?? oh by the way,, i’m not referring specificaLLy into a guy.. it’s a generaL subject.. i just wanna express it out.. i was hurt.. a Li’L bit..

i met a new friend.. yeah.. i consider her a friend, aLready.. she’s so nice to me, though she’s a bit oLder than me,, ( not that oLd.. just about 15 yrs oLder ) and has a high status and officiaL position.. we used to share some thoughts every day.. i treat her as my eLdest sister n nga.. she reaLLy touches my life in some ways.. i’d Learn some Lessons from her.. Lessons in Life.. she makes me realize what i might lost if i’m goin’ to this and that, or where wouLd i be if i’m gonna be Like this and that.. i never skip to greet her every morning.. it’s Like greeting my bioLogicaL sister whom i miss soooooo much, for she’s not with me for aLmost a month.. 

she owns a cLassic restau in town, that’s why she kept on giving me and some of my other friends foods.. ( har!har! )

‘tiLL one morning, i came Late, and when i caLled her, she toLd me it was her last day in the company.. ( by the way, we’re workin’ in one company ), what’s the reason?? it’s a career move, and a bit personaL..

yeah,, i’m sad ‘coz we won’t have the reguLar chat we used to do, but i feel great and nothing to be sorry about.. for i know,, i done one of my personaL  thoughts in Life; “ spend every minute mem’rabLe “  . i did it with her.. anyways, i’m doin’ it with everybody, esp. with my friends.. true friends.. and of course, with my famiLy, aLso..

i just miss her.. 

surviving..

tattoo by jordin sparks

if she couLd only change the worLd, she would.. she is stiLL Longin' for his embraces.. as tight as if he wanted to make their bodies into one.. missing his soft sensuaL kisses.. she wants to be stupid for the 98th time.. she wants to be in his arms again.. she is stiLL a prisoner of their mem'ries.. keep on reminiscing the times they were together.. the bad times and the good.. aLL this time, she thought she is over it; she is recovered; she is heaLed.. but she's not numb.. she can stiLL feeLs the warmth, the very speciaL warmth deep inside.. every minute strikes deep with in.. she wants to create a worLd, wherein there is no creature but onLy the two of them. therefore, nothing can ever stop them. no one can be considered.. nothing is impossibLe.. 

wouLd he come back for her.. even in her wiLdest dreams?? 

so-caLLed so coLd..

supposedLy, i’m feeLin’ better for my status as of now..

supposedLy, he’s no Longer in my memories..

supposedLy, i’m greatfuL for having new friends..

supposedLy, i’m feeLin’ great for a friend who just Left for a career move..

supposedLy, she’s busy thinking of me and my sibLings..

supposedLy, i’m gLad for wherever he is as of now..

supposedLy, he’s with me from that day on..

supposedLy, the edge is in my bare hands..

supposedLy, i’m buiLding the bridge towards success..

supposedLy, i’m happy..

supposedLy, i’m awake.. in reaLity…

… done dreaming of the irony of so-caLLed Life..

supposedLy…